the feeling comes again~

hey~
as the title mentioned above....
wat feeling?
erm.. how to express it in words???
Lonely?? nope...
sad?? nope...
i think.. i still prefer the word lonely~

this feeling always come to me whenever I'm alone in the room...
staring at the ceiling~ hugging my bear~ sometimes i even talk to them~
they are the only thing i have~
they are the one who can understand me deeply~
i feel much secure with them~


Human!!! is the word i'll shout if the place i go is crowded!!!
i hate to be surrounded by HUMAN!!!
i hate those human who dint noe how to give way!!!
they only now how to push n wan to be the 1st in all way!!!!
SELFISH!!!
AND i admit i'm one of them!!!!

beside.. i hate HUMAN to be too FLEXIBLE~~
as in emotional flexible~~
they can jz change 360degree in a second!!!!as fast as light's speed!!!!
they can be nice to u now! but once they turn their face... there go the evil!!!!!


Everyone around me will say: Feliz u have a great life.. u have SO many friends~
but deep inside me i noe i dun have a close friend~
Jz a moment ago... my friend(make him to MR.T) ask me~
T:'Hey u seem like something bothering u... u ok?
i smile... :'i'm all right~ i'm cool!" which i noe i'm not!!!
i always do so~ whenever i feel bad about something i tend to keep them to myself~
the only thing i'll do is SILENT~
i feel that the whole world stop at that moment...
i can't hear who is talking beside me..
i can't even feel anything!!!!
i'm jz alone sitting there.... stunt!!

i use to have Friends to come forward n comfort about me~
but now.. at this very moment~
i jz cant find them~


for those who noe me..
u guys should noe i had changed few secondary school..
n i get along with the schoolmate very soon~

as ppl say i'm very sociable~n i am~
since young... i'll nvr be alone.. i'm always the center of the crowd... the attention of everyone!!!
but things change!!!

as i remember my very 1st two closest friend were

Chris n Mag..
yea~ We WERE really close till things change.. which i hav to transfer bk to kl during my F4... n of course v keep contact...
until now... three of us in different college.... different life... different environment~
less contact~ they did visit me during my last sem break...
but i can feel the gap between me n them ... why? may be i'm not staying in MELAKA??
yea i think that is the best reason to comfort myself...

let's go on my friend's list.. NX
Puchong~
Agnes, Carmun, Danial...
yea, We WERE really close too....
Agnes - enroll in KDU.. which not really far from my coll... but still... she is bz with her assignment may be.. which make her no time for contact me ~ n of course she got closer friend to her in Puchong~ so.... NX
Carmun- studying in Tarc... around Petaling Jaya... not really far as well.. bt not really close to me in person~ again.. bz with assignment.. n the close friend~i am so not in the list~NX...
Danial- weirdest man i ever meet in my life...sometime he say is he there.. but mostly he is gone~ no comment~
(p.s i'm not blaming anyone ok~ i'm jz trying to express here~)

go on to my coll-KDU
Chiyin probably...
i'm closest friend to me in KDU~
but now since i'm not in that coll... she is bz with her studies as well...
n of course... with her MR'Right~ hope they will get together soon!!! i pray hard for them~

move on to my life now~ SEGI
closest friend?
Gaya, Eleanor~
as i mention... things change~~
yea... V WERE very 'close'.. but nw?? there is a gap between us...
(*if u guys are reading this... answer this to ur heart!)
u two seems happy together.. n i feel i'm not in the conversation.. n that make me feel apart away from u all~(sound childish la wei!)
but is true~
Gaya- sorry to say that.. but u changed... or may be should say i feel that things change...
i'm sure u feel the same way~ v are seem wearing masks when v talk to each other nw...
SO FAKE~i noe u boshong of something... N ME TOO!!

Eleanor- v memang not much to talk about.. so.. NO comment~


PPL i mention above~
i always keep silent when i bo shong...
cause i noe.. if i speak it out... u all will think that i vry 'small gas'
such a small thing also wan to get angry.....so childish~
i always try to be as mature as i can..
but i'm tired of this!!! i really am!!
n now wat i'm going to do... looking forward.. n will mange my anger n the way i express them~~ BECAUSE!!! i got my secret my weapon behind me....

hope NEW FELIZ coming SOON~~~

LaTeSt FeLiZ

today gonna introduce the latest ME~

with my latest hair style....
THE NERDY FELIZ~~


believe it or not~
this is my fourth time stepping in a saloon in my life!!
since born i nvr spend a single cent on my hair~
cause my mum use to own a saloon when i was a little girl~
so... when i feel like changing my hairstyle.. wat i nd to do is jz bring my mum's scissors n walk to her~ 'Ma, cut my hair pls~'
n there go my FOC hair cut~

recall back the 1st time i walked into a saloon~
i was 15th.. n thanks to my 3rd sister sponsor me to get my 1st haircut~
n now~i prefer to go to saloon since i already grow up~ no more kiddy hairstyle~
haha~~



before n after~
i use to hav a long hair til waist length~


n now~ a short flinch n a shorter hair length~
i hope to hav a bigger change on my hairstyle soon~
either perm them or straighten them~ any idea??

a leo man n a pisces girl

LEO MAN

He likes to comb his hair backward, open his forehead showing a dignify
facial ___expression.
His eyes is sparkle, but slightly showing laziness.
He walks firmly and slowly like a lion, confident and ego proud.
Outside, you may think he is kind and gentle person,
but inside he is a strong and secure person.
If he is frighten, he will re-act and respond right away.
His words always seem normal but mostly imply 'order and demanding'.
He will not talk fast, or can not talk fast, neither walk fast.
In a crowd or at work he will act normally,
but not for long you will see him standing out of the crowd
and be a center of attention with his words, or his action.

You might think he is a shy guy, but deep down inside he wants to power over
his family and his friends.
He just waits for that right moment.
Do not take what is his, and do not order him, or else you will see a fierce lion..
He respects elderly and senior, but will never bow down and accept like a
looser for he will rather die than loose his dignity.

He talks bluntly even on an occasion that he should not say such thing.
He is a compassionate guy and always look at other people on a bright side.
He likes people to listen to him.
Even he has such a blunt and bold personality,
he could easily reach his goal without making any enemy.

Once disagree with him on something, he can be very up set like a rainy
storm on a summer day.
It will only last a short time, then he will be back
a cheery merry person again.
He is a bright and witty guy, and he will not
put any efforts on something that he thinks it will not work and waste his energy.
He is a good planner and can well manage his job assigned.
When he gives order, he expect them to be carry out exactly.
He is the leader type that the followers love.

He can give other people advice and solve problems for other people well,
except his own mess.
He can be easily hurt by other people especially if you do not trust or respect his ability.
You could compliment him sometimes and make this lion be your kitty with no difficulty.
He is not a good judge for he listen to many people and tend to belief all sides.

You can hardly see a Leo man with no woman by his side.
If you see him alone, he could already have a love one in his heart,
or just broken up with one.
Because he is very proud, he can change many girl friends.
He will do many things for the woman he loves, but loosing his face is not one of them.
Leo man can not live without love , because for him Love is a ray of Light.

He likes people to rely on him, it's make him feels 'in power'.
He may complaint if he is asked for favor, but deep inside he is happy that you asked him.
If you offer to help him , he will refuse you right away.

When he is broke , he can find money still.
He is not careful with his way of spending for he has fun with spending money and happy to buy what he likes.
He lets other people borrow money from him easily even if he has no
money, he will run to his friend to borrow money for you.
He likes first class , first quality of everything.

He can work hard like a mad dog, and sometimes can be lazy like a lazy sleepy cat.
When he works, he is very serious.
When he parties, he can be a party animal.
If he ask you out, you will sure have a fun and jolly time.

He will take chance with his love life, so if you know how to handle him, you will win.
If he is your love one, it won't be a romance novel.
You haveto be ready to calm him down when he over reacts to small matters because
your cool stability will control and ease his mood.
If you can not handle or understand him,
your relationship will be like a demolition zone,
a on and off relationship till all your friends tired to hear about your breaking up and making up.

Beauty is always in the eyes of the lion.
You have to be dignify to walk with the lion king.
Your looks is part of his image and ego and he is very proud about it too.
If you want his attention the first time you meet, you
better be astounding attractive.
If you have a first conversation with him, you have to show him how much you adore his thinking.
He likes to talk and not knowing that he likes to talk about himself.

PISCES WOMAN

She likes to be in a dream world than to be in reality.
She is weak and ensitive when it's come to 'Love'.
She can cry if her best friend is breaking up,
and she can be over excited when her friend gets a new boy
friend who is a good looking and rich even it is nothing concerned her at all.
You might be surprise to see that she is shy just because she is in love.
More or less it will be in Pisces woman.
She loves small animal and gifted in training animals.

She has sixth senses and she can guess what will happen next, it's her nature.
Even she has a good sixth senses, she can not pick or foreseen her own choice of lover.
She can not tell if she meet a sincere guy or a one night stand guy.

She likes to buy and pick her own cloths.
She likes to dress cute and be cute.
Pisces woman tend to be a good looking woman and she has a nice skin.
Her hands and feet are small and soft.
Pisces woman loves to shop for shoes as if she collects them.
She is a hot lady that everyone wants her.
Whether she has a man in her life or not , she will never try to over powered any man.
It's not even in her thought.

She thinks man can handle things better, and she will make her man feel that way.
She is an easy going person, so being with her is easy.
She is a confident woman and likes to make people who stay with her happy.
She knows how to please and how to comfort a man.
If something is wrong, she will try to make other people belief that it's must be because of someone else, not because of her love one.
She will not push her man to be ambition but to make him feel like he should be happy with the way he is now.
She is happy
with you for what you are now.

A Pisces woman , if she has a bad childhood, she will always remember it and
it will make her a very unhappy person.
She will pity herself and feel sorry for herself.
She tends to hurt herself with out knowing it and so vulnerable
to drugs (real drugs or just sleeping pills).
She has many choices and you can never tell which path she going to take.
If you love her , then hold her
tight because she never knows why she did what she did or what she will do
next.

A complex character.
You may think she is a shy innocent type and can not hurt anyone, then you are wrong.
You might think she is a fragile person who needs protection, wrong again.
She has been through a lot, a tough cookie.
She is a dreamer and love the word 'Love', so she is the type who will buy
gift for anyone for any occasion, especially if it is a gift for wedding or
an anniversary even for someone who she does not know so well.

Be very careful if fall in love with Pisces woman.
She can be a total different person before and after.
She can be an angle before and later a witch, but everyone is not perfect, right?
She will be soft and gentle most of the time, so not to worry.
She is emotional and extremely sensitive when
she frequently got hurt.
She is the type who can cry her heart out.

She can have a secret fear inside, when she says she does not need anyone.
She badly needs someone to protect her, but sometimes she can hide that
feeling by being stubborn.
She likes to hide her shyness and her weakness from her enemy.
She does not like to follow any fixed rules.
She can be a good housewife if you know how to handle her..

Many men will ask to marry her because she is a 100% woman.
If she wants to be sweet, she is a real angles.

HERE come the celebration~~

ok as i promise after i 'recover' i will blog up~ so here they are!!!


my Christmas eve

cool~~ n i'm so proud of my self~~ 4 wat?? u will noe soon!!
after whole day helping my mum in the office i finally can get out of the cage n meet up Agnes n Carmun...
i'm so excited cause hav been ages after the last time i meet them up~ miss them so much~~ hee!!
so~
v plan to go Sunway Pyramid n hang out like last year!
but unfortunately Agnes said no more snow spray for this year~
n they wont be so big crowd as last year also!!
erm. sad case!!
v parked our car outside Sunway Pyramid.. (oh!! i forget an important ppl!! TEDDY!! he was our driver of the nite!! haha...)

n walk in to sunway pyramid~ OMG... the 1st word i said is...."HUMAN EVERYWHERE"
is so pack!! so hard to walk around also!!!
so v decided to get our dinner+supper~
most of the restaurant is full~
Agnes suggest Full House at the beginning n v walk there~ u noe wat!
they only serve Christmas set which is RM 89++ per set!! WTH~
so of course v walk off~~

v end out in Papa Rich,

my milo dinousur~~~ yummy
after meal v went to the Night Park of sunway Lagoon~
free entrance~ hee.. walk around...
but dint manage to go for any ride cause kindda many ppl+ not worthy~
expensive!!!

4 of us~~ before entering sunway lagoon~~
reindeer n us~~ nice pic!!!

after sunway lagoon~ v walk out n decided to check out the clubs~
and for me this is the best part of all~
i always wanna try how is the clubs n malaysia since i nvr been one~
v saw cocobanana full of Human~
lining up to enter!!!
all the girls look so Hot~!~ sexy!!!@@

Euphoria(MOS) was our last destination~
v walk right in front of the clubs n v saw the notice board~
-above 21 years old!
omg~ jz break our mood~
so v jz hang around the door considering whether v should step in..
n not sure about the charge as well!!
but then.. thx to teddy~ he walk to the guard n ask~
girl above 18th are allow~~ hoorey!!!!!
when v decided to walk in the security guard suddenly shout at us~
"AH MOI, COME in now is free!!! v gonna close soon!!"
"Are u 18th? COME in!!!"

haha~
three of us pop pop pop walk in the club~
i proudly show my IC~~ i'm 18!!!
haha!!
but unexpectedly when v step in to the club~ only two little dwarf were on the dance floor~
n is so so quiet.. only DJs were 'high'
v browse around the clubs~ ppl look at us like v are freak or something~
may be the way v dress up doesnt look hot enough~
till 11pm+ Human start walking in the dance floor~
n there go us~
v all start our move too~ some girl were really HOT~ dancing~
but then v are nt in that high mood~
cause all those song played by the DJ werent very nice~
n They actually count down at 12.15am~

v stayed till 1am n decided to go~ cause nothing much to make us stay~
TAda~~ that's my celebration for my christmas eve~
simply n COOL~ proudly announce That i'm LEgal to be in CLUBS~~ haha!!


*new year eve coming soon also~ cause kindda rush in time for my meeting~ LATER~

not in mood

something going wrong last.... perhaps this year~~

is new year~~ wat happen to me!!!
suppose to be smiling all the time right???
but so not now!!!
tears rolling in my eyes!
heart beating weird! jz so not me!!!!!
something bordering me badly!

i'm suppose to post about my celebration...
but i think i'll jz postpone it~
cause so not in mood for doing tat~~
but i promise i'll share my wonderful Christmas n New Year eve celebration once i recover!!!
may be tonight.. may be tomorrow~ who knows?

so many things to aim at 2010~~

FELIZ's List To Do In 2010
COMING SOON!!!