wat am i thinking?

wat is in u?
sad? happy? angry?strong?

to survive in this society..
most of the time u hav to hide ur real self..
until u forget who are u in the beginning..

i'm really tried of pretending strong...
one of my friend told me..
no matter how strong a girl could be someday she will drop her tears...
no matter how good she hide someday she'll release it...

and two month and 20 days i tot i was being myself...
and i tot S really accept it from the bottom of the heart..(S-jz name the someone as S)
and after two month and 20 days.. S told me that S can't do it anymore...

AND now... should i pretend back again?
pretend that everything b4 that wasn't real?
pretend that everything b4 doesn't exist?

i'm confuse... stay strong is the only thing i can do!!
as grandpa say.. listen to ur heart...
yup yup yup... is time for me to listen to my heart....
may be it could take two days to find the answer.. or may be it could be two months or even longer..
but someday.. someday.. i'll find that!!

God pls bless me...

blogging??

wat's actually blogging about? jz telling everyone about ur personal life?
i hav no idea why i started blog at the 1st time.. may be jz because everyone hav 1. so i follow...
as my sis say i always follow the trend...
but as wat i noe.. i follow my heart..i'll do watever i feel like doing....

ok rubbish all around.. bk to myself..
jz few update for this few days...

start with my new sem!! and ppl around(especially my eldest sis) will start asking...
how's study?
and the only answer i had was...
LIKE THAT LO... that wat youngster would say right?

my class....
3 co-subject..
Physic
Math
Chem

summary about the sub n lecturer...
Phyics- my lec-HOT.. she is a very young woman...probably 27 of age..chinese of course...
-i luv the way she dress up
-she talks soft but clear...
-really good in explaining..
- very systematic(as in teaching accordingly to wat she plan)
-and the important thing is.. i jz get full 10 marks today for my assignment!!
*hope she won go differently through out the class....

Math-my LEC??- yeu... her name is MS Jiwamalar..
the 1st day of class she emphasize her name Jiwa..
and my friend said that she is Ms.Sakit Jiwa.. at 1st i feel bad to say that..
but after 3 class i had.. i really think that is so true...
-SHE CRAP ALOT
-say alot of nonsense stuff...(human life)
-how u should behave in math lesson... and u noe wat.,. she even has her
own math attitude..
"if u r a math person u hav that math attitude.. u jz follow watever
the lecturer say but not questioning.. you noe some ppl jz can't stop
question cause they are not math type of person.. and if u are not
that person you shouldn't be in this class.. bla bla bla......."
imagine she non-stop saying about this stupid topic for 30 min.. n dint even start her lesson!!!
i get really mad!!!!!!!!!!!
-she is very selfish... there are alot of foreign student in my class...
around 10 of them.. and they are kindda slow learner...real slow.. they dun
understand very simple math...
nt even modern math... not trying to say i'm smart.. but they really slow us down...
and the point is MS S*** J*** actually said'If u can;t follow the class i think
you shouldn't be here... you should get something that u can
follow..."AND.. there goes her story again n again...
*really hope she will realize this ASAP.. so that v wont suffer....

Chemistry-my lec- is a lady.. malay.. but she dun speak eng like malay..
-helpful...
-willing to explain UNTIL v get understand...
-Quite punctual...
*hope she keep'll all this.. so that v can get more interest in this sub...


classmates- of course gt the 'brainess'... who are really hardworking type..
go library right after class even got no homework or revision..
-got the normal type(of course i'm one of them).. jz do their job... and of
course pay attention to the lec....
-the blur type(most of them are the foreign student) they jz dun understand
wat the lec talking about.. And they dun ask question.. jz sit there and look at
the blank paper
and everytime in class i can see many many many question marks around
their head turning around... really pity them....
Classmate kindda quiet ... not really kindda but really quiet..
i'm always the one who 'talks' alot (as usual)..
may be is jz the beginning of the class so... hope v get to noe each other n v'll change!!!!!
AND GAYA.. get well soon.. CLASS WITHOUT U iS BORING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

珍惜眼前

grandpa.. pls read this and give some comment.. my speech for tomorrow.. reader.. any comment that can make me improve.. pls do so.. left 24 hours...
太太在二十五岁时侯问丈夫，你错过了什么？
丈夫沮丧地回答她：我错过一个新的工作机会。
三十五岁时，丈夫生气地告诉她：我刚错过了一班公车。
四十五岁时，丈夫伤心地说：我错过与亲人见最后一面。
五十五岁时，丈夫失望地说：我错过了退休的好时机。
六十五岁时，丈夫匆匆地说：我错过了看牙医的时间。

一如往常，太太总是报以微笑，而微笑中总带着寂寞。 七十五岁那年，太太不再问丈夫了。此时，丈夫正跪在病危的太太面前，想起太太每隔一段时间总要问他的问题，他反过来问太太，而太太的微笑中带着解脱地回 答：“这一生，我没有错过你。”此时，丈夫早已泪流满面，原以为两人可以永远在一起，所以终日忙着工作与琐碎的事，却从不曾用用心体贴朝夕相处的另一半。 这时，丈夫紧抱着太太说：“这辈子，我错过你五十年的深情……”

珍惜，真的要在错过后才能感受吗？

没有人知道明天会怎样。所以珍惜现在！
人生短短几十年, 人生有着开心与快乐.有着悲伤与痛苦.有着仇恨与嫉妒.有着不解的情缘.
人生最重要的不是金钱,不是权利,而是珍惜.珍惜你眼前人,很多人在自己拥有的时候不知道珍惜,不知道珍惜父母对他默默的爱,不知道珍惜朋友之间的友谊,更不知道珍惜时光,等到所剩不多的时候才知道去珍惜,更有的人明知道所剩不多却还不知道珍惜,只是胡乱的懊恼;悲伤与后悔,其实每个人在人生的每一个阶段都会注定要失去一些自己最心爱的东西.
但是,当你回忆起往事,你想想你珍惜过吗?努力的去珍惜了吗?

有一个朋友告诉我他的亲生经历。他千心万苦要考上大学，结果只差一份。我问他后悔吗？
他回答 说是：“路是自己走的,不管最后是正确的还是错误的,我不怨天也不怨地,因为这一切都是自己造成的.“
其实,我们仔细想一想,人生不过短短几十年，,小的时候不知道珍惜,长大了,虽然知道什么叫珍惜,但天不从人,你的负担'家庭,事业给了你重重的压力,使你有着太多的无耐。每个人的人生都很不容易,都有着自己最值得骄傲的往事,也有着悲伤的往事,每个人都有自己的同学,在一起的时候不多说话,还可能会有一些误会,等你毕业了,离开了母校,离开了同学,就在也不可能回到那种校园时光,几年之后,在回忆起那种校园时光,你一定很伤心,因为你当时没有珍惜,那时候已经晚了.时间不会因个人的悲伤与痛苦而倒流.。

人的一生有一些注定要失去的,有一些你完全可以把握的住,我希望每个人都应该去珍惜,不管最后失去还是得到,至少你在次回忆起时,你不会后悔,因为你珍惜过,努力过,所以你无怨无悔. 生命其实就是这么脆弱！比起那些灾民，我们真的很幸运，我们晚上能谁个好觉吃个热饭，健健康康！
正因为如此我们更要珍惜眼前，我们现在所拥有的不是自己最满意的，但是对于一个失去生命的人是个莫大的奢求！

我们可能因为生活、工作、家庭等原因有不开心的时候，或者我们面临着一个又一个问题，一个又一个烦恼，其实这些与失去生命相比，又算什么呢！
我们可能有份不如意的工作或工作的压力太大、问题太多，但总比没有工作的好；
我们可能偶尔生病，但是数日之后，我们依然身强体壮；
我们可能家庭不是很幸福、父母的身体不是很好、子女读书可能不是很聪明、也可能我们没有更多的钱，
但是我们有个完整的家，难道这个不是最重要的吗？
所以让我们珍惜眼前吧！

人很奇怪，每每要到失去后才懂得珍惜。其实，幸福早就放在你的面前。肚子饿得不行的时候，有一碗热腾腾的拉面放在你眼前就是幸福；累得半死的时候，躺在软软的床上是幸福。 珍惜眼前的人，眼前的工作，眼前的条件可能是我们最大的财富！人可以有理想，但是不能好高骛远！
不要因为生活中的小矛盾，小烦恼，小问题影响了我们的心情！因为这些其实都不是问题，这些可能都是来磨练我们的意志，让我们变的更加成熟！
当婴儿出生，第一声啼哭，第一次上学，第一次工作，第一次恋爱，第一次生病，第一次痛苦。当我们还在盼望着许多第一次的时候，最后一次开始逐渐替代我们的人生。最后一次哭泣，最后一次上班，最后一次握手，最后一次见到，最后一次呼吸。 幸福与痛苦往往就在我们尚未真正明白的时候就已经转化，过去与未来相互交替。在这里，我不是苦恼我们失去的东西，也不是执着我们获得的东西，因为那些都没 用。我只是告诉大家一个我的认识：珍惜眼前人，也就是活在当下。
人生无常，赶紧把握当下，把心中的感激告诉爱你的人，把每一天都当成人生的最后一段，即使走了，也能让自己及身边的人了无遗憾。

pic of our'gang'(WE YES)

our group come with 12 of us!! big gang..
include IT ,Commerce, Science, Business management ,Mass com student..
5 boys and the rest girls...
1 Malaysia mah! AHcheh.. patriotic sial.. haha...
got three races.. indian.. chinese... AND Sigh

there goes our crazy pic... Sangeta surprise birthday party +last class for moral study11 ppl in the fitting room?stuck!!!yoke kuan, sangeta, gaya, aaron
emily,xin yi, varin and ME

up on the building!!! acting cool!!!WE YES!!!(aaron n bean not in-too bad)